FREE FALL THOUGHTS

this one came usually.....like wen ur irritated wid hot humid kolkata summer n u do nuthin but strirring up ur room in frustration..... It was fan making some noise and the empty allout with flickering light searching for cell phone lost in disguise all I could manage was the charger in sight. I stumbled over coffee mug ashtray for the packet of cigarettes the emptied array, bend down to pick old magazines glossy pages which has lost its sheen. a key by the window with god knows what keys a stapler without pins came under the siege. files and folders on both sides of bed pile of assignment papers making me dead. deodorant, creams and the shaving kit I looked for a place where it could fit. Inner wears I found beneath old torn jeans empty hangers and pillow without skin. Doors and window left open for breeze all that came was dust kicked sneeze. now the turn to clean some trash useless papers in wallet sans cash. chocolate ...

this was on special request of Gaurav...my roommate during grad project. he was not satisfied with his efforts on whatever he laid his hands on. and i penned it the same night....21st march at 1:00 am. here it goes..... Chasing the dreams shadows of self into the darkness, somewhere near the hell. Turbulent ideas, excitement soared but could not hear the silent roar. Instead heard a familiar sound realizing I had lost my ground running harder and faster for some solution confusing confusion and defying delusion. satisfaction stood forever at bay in the dyeing nights and ageing days with a shot of shot of vodka and a thunderbolt shaking ribs with euphoric jolt. finally I had defeated my soul and the chase has taken its toll.